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Here we go again

Hey hey! How have you been? 
I don't even know whom I talk to. Well, just pretend you are someone I know dearly. 
It's cloudy here, right now. It rained hard this morning. But, as you know, I love the atmosphere. It gives me spirit and hopeful feeling.
These weeks were not that fun. Well actually till now I haven't felt right yet doing what I've been doing. Confused? Yes! 
Sometimes I feel I'm not right studying medical. I don't know the reason. Far apart from my parents? Could be. Not interested? Not really. Can't say exactly what I feel.
These days were pretty hard. Did everything under pressure. I didn't have much time for myself. Though the schedule of my campus life weren't tight. The thing is I lost so many hours, minutes, seconds everyday.
To be truthful, I love the topic of my block right now. It's about growth and development and is connected with fetus, pregnant women, etc since I wanna be an obgyn.
But then back to the real problem, I feel like I'm not fit in this. I don't know why. Sometimes I think maybe because of the new environment, friends, parents. I don't know.
From what my heart tells me, and also what I'd been thinking when I was in high school, I wanna do something that is fun. Something that doesn't need to be thought to much. Something that needs talent. Well, I know talent itself won't do. But, I wanna do something which is my PASSION.
Honestly, I haven't found my passion yet until now. It's super frustrating! 

How long will I suffer this feeling?
How long will I accept myself right now?
Can you help me answer these questions?
Can you help me solve my problem?
I feel confused. SUPER not a little.

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