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Oh hello! Again, it's been quite a long time since I last posted. So things happened. Time flew. It's been five months since the New Year. Shoot! I haven't done great things so far. Or probably this gloomy feeling always comes near my birthday, I'm not sure. Oh crap! I'm turning 25 tomorrow and haven't achieved something worthwhile yet so far. Haven't made my parents proud yet, I guess. I've worked for almost 6 months in a region next to a country named Timor Leste (if you've ever heard). Well, yeah, further than Bali from home. I haven't had the chance to get back chez moi since the schedule is like hell, the airplane tickets are freakin' pricey and I'm broke. I've started working a while back as a translator of medical journals for the residents and the interns. I think I have made much money but again, the consumptive habit was hard to control. Most of the time I bought dresses and skincare products. Now, I feel completely lost...

I wrote this article on my flight back to Bali but just managed to upload it here hehe It was a quite amazing trip here in Philippines, though honestly I didn’t really much enjoy it. I’m not sure if this town is after all magnificent or not. It’s too plain. I went with my classmate and housemates at the university. No conflict was found though I personally enjoy traveling on my own. Sometimes, I felt lonely when I went alone; i.e. trip to Japan, but I believe that one just has to find someone who he/she connects with in order to make the whole trip fascinating. I personally need some time alone whenever I travel. Need a room to let my soul breathe for a moment. I know some people just don’t get it and even find me weird. That’s just how I work. Anyway, in my opinion, Manila is not so attractive. It’s just like any other metropolitan city in South East Asia. If I have to say, it’s more like Bangkok and Jakarta. The traffic and the city, though in some areas of the city, the arr...

Hi there! So, I guess by reading the title of this post you have known the result of my UKMMPD exam. I passed it! Thank God! I was so afraid that I might not pass it. Four days ago, I was inaugurated as doctor and took the Hippocratic Oath. At the moment I'm still waiting for my time to graduate and take the internship program. Meanwhile, I still don't know what to do during my waiting moment. I was thinking about managing my life once more. I've been living a crappy life since I did my exam. Still on my way to finish Niveau B1 en francaise. Gotta take TOEFL iTP this Tuesday. Gotta apply for my exchange program to France.  I really don't know what to do after this. I'm thinking about having a part-time job while waiting for the internship program. Lots of my friends have taken shifts at clinics aka "dokter gadungan" since we are not yet legal to practice on our own. My dad doesn't allow me to do that but now I'm a bit stressed cause I...

Oh hello again! It's been awhile, eh? How are you?  So right, I'm coming back because apparently I don't have any particular activities to do. I've been spending my days inside my room due to lack of schedule and outdoor activities. Oh ya, I hope you're doing great (whoever happens to crash into this article). My life has been such a waste these past few weeks. Well, it's not that I don't have anything to do. I do have some things in mind actually, I just am so good in procrastinating. It's just my thing, my true capability. So yeah, you might be wondering "wazup bro?" Well well, lately I've been worrying about lots of things. Truthfully I am so nervous to wait for the outcome of my national exam (the-so-called UKMPPD). It's a getaway exam before finally becoming a doctor. I'm not really sure that I did really good, but I had tried my very best. I just pray that I'm gonna pass it (both CBT and OSCE). Oh God! Remembering t...

Happy New Year 2018 fellas! New year new resolutions, eh? Have you made yours yet? Well, to be honest I haven't done mine until now. I think I will make mine after I finish writing this post. Not here of course hahaha. I'm gonna have to write it somewhere else. I know it's a cliche right? New year, new you, new resolutions. I guess some parts of us want to renew ourselves and be better. Each year serves you both good and bad experiences. I know maybe some of you, like me, we tend to think more about the bad sides of the year. We remember more about the loss, the grief, the downfall, the heartbreak, and anything negative. Well, for those of you who are positive people I'd say, good for you.  Me? I'm actually not that negative. I just happen to like grieving much. Last year gave me a lot of good and bad stuffs, but thankfully I managed to survive till this year. Horay! It's something to celebrate, right? The fact that I tackled my depression and got bac...

Hi again! I'm home already for Christmas this year. You know what, I got good news. I've finished my clinical rotation in the hospital already which means I will be facing another exam for finally wearing the title of MD (Medical Doctor). It's not that huge. Actually, I have to say I questioned my self every single day, "Is it the life I like? Am I doing the right thing? No, I wasn't meant for this life. I don't know why I chose this kind of life." Well, yeah, to be honest, I struggled a lot. Mainly with my self during this rotation period. And boys thingy. As always. Good Lord, I'm gonna take a break from opening up to another fucked up relationship. Thank you. I've had enough already. I am done. Next time there's a guy showing up again, he'd better be so good and won't leave me for another damn girl HAHAHAHA. I'm not just some kind of girls who can be replaced just like that. Ups, this is not the time to talk about this stupi...