Live Your Dream!

Hello there! Time flies so fast, eh? It's almost year  2014 already. Have you thought about what you've accomplished in year 2013? Well, for me, I haven't. Now is probably the time. I wrote this article at Cafe Lotus, Ubud. There were a lot of ups and downs, I've been through. God taught me lots of aspects in life.  If you do a flashback, you might remember important things in life. Well, maybe part of it has been written in this blog. Many blessings I received from God. For instance, I went to UK this year. I wasn't able to post the adventure anyway. So sorry hehe. But well, it was the most thrilling journey I've ever been through. Travelling to another part of the world on my own. I visited Abu Dhabi before arriving in London. So many good places there and I will visit again, for sure.  Anyway, I was in somekind of a relationship with a guy this year. It was short and sad. That was the lowest time in my life but I got better. Honestly, you could say I fel...

Hello there! Been so long not writing. I wrote before that I came to write whenever I felt sad, terrible, or well, not in the mood. For me, it's kinda tough. You know, what? I haven't told you yet that I already bought the ticket to go to UK finally this August since a month ago. How can't it be good? The flight will be on August 2nd, 2013. I was so so so excited to go there. You know, I've waited long enough for this to happen. Five years is not short. How could you possibly be unhappy if you were me? No right?! The aims of going there, apart from sight-seeing, was supposed to be visiting my relatives. My uncle, aunt and their children. Family visit, in short. How can't you be so excited about that? The departure is less than two weeks by now. I've been longing to go there, going to new places with them. I haven't met my uncle yet. I was supposed to have the chance meeting him. Yesterday morning, when I woke up, my phone rang. I saw the name on the scr...

Hey again! Been a long time not writing here. I didn't find time, or I guess I didn't make one. I guess you might think, "why does she always come up in such a bad mood?" hahaha. I know. Yes, because maybe in this kind of state I have the mood to write and maybe because I need someone or something to talk. The problem is usually my feeling is mixed up. I'm just overwhelmed. I kinda have this unclear feeling. Getting sad and depressed because of unknown factor.  This week, well after the HSBP exam has finished, I lost my energy. I lost my mood for unknown cause. I don't understand. Seriously. I became extremely lazy, even for getting out of bed. I lost my spirit to study. I prefer locking up myself at my room than showing up. I think I need some time alone. I love being alone actually, but on the other hand I also need friends. I hate being lonely, but I love being alone. Complicated, eh? Duh! That's me. A complicated individual. Yesterday, I was so ho...

Heeeeey! It's May 10th already, huh? Gawd tomorrow is my birthday. In less than two hours, local time. I don't know exactly what the point of writing today is. I just feel like writing, without any purpose. Well, right now I'm at Starbucks with my mates hahahaha :D Things flooded in my mind these days. I can't describe it. I started thinking about the plans on August, aging process, the books I must read, studying, home, him, and God. Imagine yourself in my mind. I think I have the non-structural mind like my mum. Like mother, like daughter. Well, I miss hooooooomeeeee so bad right now. I miss mum, dad, bro, my room, my parents' room, and well Surabaya of course. Going back would only cut the expenses to the UK. That's the plan I've been longing forever. Traveling broadens the mind, after all.  I always think about traveling around the world. Or maybe locking myself in my room for days, weeks or months and read the novels I've bought. I just need so...

Hi there! I'm back after a month disappearing from you. Can be said I had tough days before I could finally relax and chill for a while. Well, I've just finished the duty at the campus' organization. The event was held for three days and it absolutely had drained my energy. New experience, I know, but well there are always sacrifices to reach a goal. To finish this, well we'd got to sacrifice our time and energy. Hmmm, but I guess it was worthy. Anyway I played on an acoustic group in my organization. It was among my friends actually. Well, it went better than I'd expected. I loved it. I think I want to upload it on my account at soundcloud. ........... Another good news! I passed my remedial tests in the 1st semester. The result of my study had come out also. Thank God I got a good one. But I had a commitment in this 2nd semester I would give my best shot. Not for the sake of score, but for the knowledge and the skill. After all, like what the Japanese think, ...

Hey there! This time I'm back with a cheerful mood hahahahaha :p I can't always write sad and anxious things all the time. To be honest, it's been a hectic week. I got so many things to do and to organize. Thankfully, they went well (I guess) hahaha. I do really hope I pass my remedial test, AMEN. It was the first and the last. AMEN. I made a commitment to my self that I will kick ass on this second semester. I have to study and pass all the exams and also understand it well. What I need is time to enjoy myself at my hometown with my family. So, to achieve that I have to study my hardest to pass all of them. ............. And again I got an inspiration looking at one of my friends life. I begin to regret my stupidity and immaturity back when I was in junior high. Goodness! I think I made a mistake by wasting the opportunity to learn French. When I remember it again, I have this desire to be able and to learn it again. I want it so bad and somehow I have this goal; I ...

Hey again! Finally, I can update another article for my blog hihihihihi. It's a good thing right? Well today was actually not a special day, but it was special because I met up with my super desk mate during high school, Pauline. We hadn't met up for like ages ago (which actually 6 months only) but for me it meant a lot. First, I picked her up with Sheryl (my mate in university) and we went directly to GC. It was just a coincidence, the place I mean. We didn't have any place in particular to visit, it just came up from nowhere. The important thing was we were together and we had so many things to talk, that's it. It was the first time for me to drive while talking so much. Thank God I didn't crash on anything hahahaha :)) As we arrived at the place, we went directly to food court, ordered some menus, chose the coziest place and started talking. I have to say KyuKyu's Chicken Katsu Donburi is the best! OMO! I want to have it agaaaaaaiiiiin. Back to the sto...

Just want to post a song that's really touching. Heard it from Glee. Broadway song which was sung by Lea Michelle. Great one with great lyric also. Just wanna share:) Being Good Isn't Good Enough Being good isn't good enough Being good won't be good enough When I fly, I must fly extra high And I'll need special wings so far to go From so far below Should I try? Am I strong enough? Is there time, have I long enough? Gotta fly and if I fall That's the way it's gotta be There's no other way for me Being good just won't be good enough I'll be the best or nothing at all I'll try, am I strong enough? Is there time, have I long enough? Gotta fly and if I fall That's the way it's gotta be There's no other way for me Being good just won't be good enough I'll be the best or nothing at all  Somehow it brings back my motivation. I wasn't so passionate like the old days. So I guess this song migh...

Hey there! It's been been a while again. I'm not a frequent blogger, sorry for that :p *sigh* Well, it was a pretty tough start this February. Sadly to say, I got so many bad things happen. I'm f'd up! OMO! Don't know how to put this. It's just all my works these days didn't satisfy me. I failed in my last exam. I am conditionally pass the latsus thing. Busy days ahead. More responsibility.  Well to be honest, I am an easy panic person. Just by imagining how things will be hard ahead, I got freaked out. It's super frustrating that till now I can't manage my time well.  I still don't understand, why the heck I got bad luck this month.  *sigh (again)* Sometimes I think, maybe that's because I'm not good enough. I didn't kick ass. I didn't work hard. I played too much (which I'm not really sure). I stayed online too long. I stayed outside too long. I chatted with my friends too much.  There's like a thousand ...