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Dark February?

Hey there! It's been been a while again. I'm not a frequent blogger, sorry for that :p
*sigh*
Well, it was a pretty tough start this February. Sadly to say, I got so many bad things happen. I'm f'd up! OMO!
Don't know how to put this. It's just all my works these days didn't satisfy me. I failed in my last exam. I am conditionally pass the latsus thing. Busy days ahead. More responsibility. 
Well to be honest, I am an easy panic person. Just by imagining how things will be hard ahead, I got freaked out. It's super frustrating that till now I can't manage my time well. 
I still don't understand, why the heck I got bad luck this month. 
*sigh (again)*
Sometimes I think, maybe that's because I'm not good enough. I didn't kick ass. I didn't work hard. I played too much (which I'm not really sure). I stayed online too long. I stayed outside too long. I chatted with my friends too much. 
There's like a thousand reason that show up when I think "why did these things happen to me?"
But still, I feel like God isn't fair with me. I tried so hard with a minimum time I had to do my best. While those guys, who studied a little or maybe cheated, passed the exam.
*sigh (again)*
In the last four days I have back in Surabaya, I'll try my best to get back to my feet and set goals again for my future. I got morale support from my mum and dad here. That's why I think it's good to have some opinions and support from them.
They are never angry again like they used to about scores. I set my own goals, that's it!
One thing again that keeps on bothering me is I haven't found my passion yet. I haven't seen the direction yet. I keep on hesitating. Is being a doctor my path? I never know. Hopefully, soon or later God will enlighten this part.
So, in the next four days I will cherish every second that I have at home to do the right thing and to study really hard for preparing the remedial exam.
I will try to write on my progress here. No more writing personal thing on twitter. Got many stalker outside hahahaha :p
Wishing my self a super day. God bless. Amen

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